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Saturday, May 31, 2008

Today is filled with random thoughts.

1. I am super ultra hungrrrrry &mom's not back yet. She's sposed to buy lunch. ):
2. I want my braces off they're so uncomfortable! They don't look very nice either and my lips keep getting stuck to them, sheesh.
3. I feel so used by you. I've finally seen for myself what kinda friend you are. You don't truly care.
4. I think I'll never get a chance. 5months has passed and I still haven't gotten the courage to do what I plan to. I should probably give up, though I don't wish to.
5. I want late night walks. ):
6. I want to go out with Olivia Ong Si Ying! Actually I just want to get out of my house.
7. I want converse shoes!
8. I'm having mixed feelings about tomorrow, but aye I've alr bought the tix.
9. I didn't know people still read this blog. But hehe I'm happy. Tag pleaseeee.
10. I'm sick of homework.

I'm too lazy to type now so I shall just summarise. Braces were okay, he only did the top part. Extended curriculum has ended yayness! But there's still the last week of hols. Ohoh I wanna pierce my ears! :D Egggcited! But I shall do it after I get my braces done. I can't wait for kite-flying and barbecue :D Really hope Germ can gooooo ): Alright food's here and I hear 'Jenny' playing in the background. BYE! Btw, to Sammoo if you're reading this: Lets go out!

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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I am blogging because I feel depressed ): Not emo but depressed. There are two main reasons why. Firstly it's cause I can't friggin eat proper delicious food. ): All I've been eating are potatoes, rice, soup and toufu. The hell. I wanted to eat more since I'm putting my braces on tmr, so I had fried rice, hello panda, sushi, potato chips, chocolate and three cheese toufus yesterday despite just having extracted two teeth. &my gums bled this morning while I was brushing my teeth. ): Sadness. Kinda freaked me out but I guess I have only myself to blame. Now my gums are sore. Rah. Oh and secondly, PMS is kicking in. Me no like ): Plus braces tmr. Ohno, it just spells disaster. Cause PMS + hungry me + pain = a VERY grumpy Denise. I probably shouldn't go to sch on Fri, since I'll just be whining all day. Even now before braces I am alr very whiny. I. WANT. FOOD. I want chocolate, fried food, chips, snacks. RAHH! Everything that I cannot eat now! Dammit. I cannot resist food, I cannot go without food. That's why I can never go on a diet. People think I eat very little. But boy, they sure do not know how much I snack at home. I never knew how much I loved food till today. Yeah yeah, you never know what you've got till it's gone. HAHA. Weird how I'm using it on food instead. Okay I'm probably exaggerating but still! I really regret wanting to put braces but since I've alr extracted four teeth, I will continue. Not like I have a choice, but yeah.. Anyway I'll come to like it, right? With the funky colours. =| Green! (: Hehehe. &if I can tolerate the pain from my braces, piercing my ear shouldn't be a problem, right? =| So yeps, hopefully my next post will be a non-whiny one.

Btw, Sam applied for a job at Spinelli novena HAHAHA! It'll be amusing if she really works there. I'll get to find out stuff and I can visit her often, hoho! Alrightey I shall go play games to get food off my mind. Toodles!

at 8:01 PM

Friday, May 23, 2008

Chase You Down - Making April

It feels like summer is on it’s way
But it’s mid November
I’ll hang this dream up on display
But I wont remember anything at all
And you haven’t told me anything at all
But you know I’ll chase you down
Complacency is lost for now
But I’ll never doubt you
‘Cause all I do is wonder how
I could be without you anywhere at all
And I’d run to find you anywhere at all
But don’t you run too far away
I’m racing time for you
You know I need this now
‘Cause I’ve been burning all my aspirations down
But I’ve been feeling closer day by day
You know I’ll chase you down
It feels like summer is on it’s way
Will it ever get here
These sheltered hearts can’t make me stay
No I wont forget we’re everything I know
And I hope you take this everything I know
And you make it worth this ride to me

I'm really racing time for you.

at 11:58 PM

You're as weak as the hearts you break.

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Harlowzsx! :D I'm blogging caused someone asked me to blog more often. Cross country today was surprisingly slack. Half the cohort were walking and my walking/running got me 76th in position. I was damn shocked cause I thought top 100 was a goner. Anyhow, I survived. Temasek Poly is beautiful! I felt like I was in some fairytale land, and I felt damn tiny. Ahhhh it makes me wanna go there badly! &now I'm even more sure I wanna go poly (: My teachers will prolly kill me but whatever, they won't have to know. I don't mind the one and a half hr journey there. I think the schools I attend are getting further and further away from home =| First it was a walk away in pri sch, then two bus stops away. Then the old Cedar which was 45mins away, and now the holding site which is 1hr away. Hah, and now I wanna go all the way to Tampines. Oh gosh. &yay I think I'm going Singfest with Sammoo and Paul Frank :D &OHOHOH I forgot to mention I AM GOING FOR THE CLICKFIVE CONCERT HAHAHA! I am damn friggin happeeee! Thankyou JQ hehe. I know you're reading this.

There are TONS of things to be done this hols! ): First and last week will be occupied with extended curriculum, tuition everyday (oh bless my soul) except on weekends and finally, revision and more revision! I dreadddd. Oh, and I have decided to be a loser with no life and limit myself to using the com every Friday. Regarding teevee, I can't live without it so I shall just watch whenever I'm free. I don't know if I should go tmr. I want to cause I think if I don't I'll be missing out on alot, but Sammoo can't go with me tmr so that makes a very lonely me. Ayeee.

at 11:11 PM

Monday, May 19, 2008

Cause every time that I try I get tongue tied

I'm sick of testimonials. Really sick. I've written four for people so far oh man I think mine is pathetic compared to theirs. What the hell can I achieve in library?! Anyway an F9 for cca still allows a one point deduction, so all is still good. I hope. =|

RCIY starts next week I guess. Next week is only the introduction or something. I'm having mixed feelings though. On one hand it means more friends, right? (Hopefully) But if I don't get any new friends it'll be damn pathetic and lonely and boring. Aye. Hope all goes welllllll and hope I won't regret joining this. Oh, and RCIY means having to wake up early for mass on Sundays. Ohman there goes my sleep.

I dread June hols so very much ): With hols come a huge pile of homework plus tuition every single day! PFFFFFT. I haven't had so much tuition in my whole LIFE. Not even in P6. What's up with this man, no one in my family is even nagging me as much. I think I've decided. I want to go poly. &even with my mom and aunt's constant nagging and persuading I won't ever change my mind. Well I most probably won't. Unless I get friggin good grades, like 6pts or something (which I want so very badly but is not even in the least possible). I got fed up one day and told my mom "I don't know why everyone's so anxious it's not like I'm going JC anyway. It doesn't matter even if I slack and get 20 pts" &I sure as hell got scolded damn badly. Of course I said that just to piss her off but still, her reaction was scary. According to my plse score I'm sposed to get 10.5 or smth, but I don't want that. Hmmm, the motivation and stress isn't getting to me.. yet. But I should probably go plan my timetable soon. Yes, I'm mugger. Who cares. Ugh I hate O's.

With that said, I think I can say goodbye to my freedom and all my outings. Dang. Ironically, I think I've gone out alot this yr. More than I ever did in my 4yrs but I want more >:(

Alrights, I've got a craving for Spinelli hehe. I'm taking 26 tmr! But not cause I want to, it's cause I need to. ): Dental again tmr to put back the separator which has dropped. My mouth doesn't hurt as much anymore and I can finally eat! But I still have two more teeth to pluck, then it's time for braces. Pain for vanity, as quoted by my dentist. Ohwells. Oh &I've finally found time to read and it felt good :D Kite Runner next, then Yakuza Moon YAY!

I can't wait for Wednesday. (: Where are you now? ):

P/S - Quote of the day yesterday: "My butt is warm and friendly." HAHAHA!

Round round they spin like a record now
Same false hopes built to be broke down
Around and around
I'm falling down, again

This feels the same
Complications in different situations
I am holding out for love
Is it worth it
To die a little each day
All for unseen grace

at 5:52 PM

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Not walking but running, not talking, yelling.

Aight. Dental today was horrible.

Dentist: "Sorry, I think I traumatised you today."

Right on, man. ): I was so damn friggin painful. The extraction was okay, took only 15mins? It was the stuffing of the separators that hurt like shit. Cause they had to stuff and force the stupid separators in. Having teeth that are uber close to each other does not help. At all. ): I came out shivering(partly cause I was cold). &now I have a slight fever. ): I sound so loser! I wish I had a higher threshold of pain, ohwells. Think it'll be worse when I put my braces on. I will be going on a diet. Unwillingly, but still. ): I want nachos and chocolate! >:( Pfft.

Anyways, had farewell followed by photo-taking yst. Food was good, company was good. :D We had scavenger hunt for sweets! &they were pretty easy to find :D Haha like where else can you hide stuff in the library? It's only shelves, shelves, and more shelves! Haha. We have stepped down :D Yay, no more duty :D But to the teeniest tiniest extent I do feel kinda sad. Don't think I'd step into the library anymore after this. I'll miss Mdm Heng! She's suuuuper nice :D &the juniors are nice :D Ohwells. I never knew/expected that I would like library. I guess. Rushed home to bathe and rushed to meet Germy at CityHall for choir concert! :D They were mighty fantastic! The alumni came back to sing too, which was cool. The choir sang 'Dream A Little Dream of Me!' Hehe. &I think 'Big Girls Don't Cry' was nice. (Not the one by Fergie) Oh, they sang the school song for the encore haha. Most of the Cedarians were standing up when they sang the school song. Heartwarming (:

Jamien saw MSB/SG on bus 26 today! :D See see my eyes weren't playing tricks on me! Hehehe how coincidental. I'm amused. The world is very, very small. I think I've been going to Spinelli a lil too often though. =|

Btw, L1R5 for midyrs: 17 >:( Disappointing. Guess I'll hafta work a lot harder, esp Physics and SS? Err, and Chinese. =| Alrights, 10 for Prelims! MUST. Mugging(again ):) will hafta start in June. Gee, so much for June HOLIDAYS. Okey dokey then, I shall sleep early tonight. Adios! :D

Currently addicted to FM Static ;D

And here I am, on the West Coast of America
And I've been trying to think for weeks of all the ways to ask you
Now I've brought you to the place
Where I poured my heart out a million times
For a million reasons
To offer it to you
- Moment of Truth

And they might not ever understand why I do what I do
But I can only speak my mind and what I feel is true
I'll take a vow to be the only one to stand if it takes
All that I am I will be standing
- Six Candles

Not. Gonna. Give. Up!
4 months more. I have to do something, and quick!

at 9:56 PM

Thursday, May 8, 2008

I Bet On You.

Yay I deleted the emo part of my previous post cause I realised that well, things aren't that bad actually. (:

The main purpose of this post is to say a Reeeaaaaaallly big THANKYOU to Germ, JiaQi, Shir and Fiona again for Bday present part 2 today! :D I like it alottt! &to Germ, thanks so sooooo much for the scrapbook! I really got a shock when you gave it to me and I got an even bigger surprise when I looked at the peektures inside, hee hee. I didn't know how many photos we've accumulated in just 5months and these 5months have been the best time of my life. (: Ever. I went to 3N last year hating it cause I didn't know a single soul. &I never knew that I'd have such special and wonderful friends who'd always stick by me. There's so much more I wanna say but I'm saving it for my letter to you. (: Thing is, I wurve y'all, so much more than words can ever express. :D

Yesterday was funn! :D First time celebrating my birthday with Sammoo ever since she came back from GZ. Took a black and white photo at the ID Photo Booth as a momento but it turned out a disaster. Worst photo ever. ): What Happens In Vegas was cliched but really funny and sweet. The woman beside me was hilarious even though she irritated the hell out of me. Sam got really amused by her and my exasperated face. Her comments were real weird and random with comments like "That's the way, man!" and "Can he go shave?" like !@#$^& Ohgosh.

Not forgetting pissing three of the staff off at the Jap restaurant for asking if we could return the plates cause we couldn't finish them. They refused to take it from us at first but they eventually agreed but they threw it away cause they couldn't put it back. =| Felt damn guilty. OHOH next comes highlight of our day: WE SAW UTT! :D omg omg I didn't realise it was him at first and I said "That guy looks like Utt." &Sam said "CAUSE HE IS!?" =| Heh so that got us smiling to ourselves from PS all the way to Orchard. :D Teeheehee He. Is. So. Gorgeously. Hot! He looks so much better than on teevee!

Hee so with that, Denise has been a happy happy girl, especially yst and today, maybe cause PMS is almost over. But who cares cause I'm happy and since I'm happy, anything goes. Wheee.

P/S - I want to go to SingFest badlyyyy. But to go with Sammoo and Paul Frank would be so weird. I need another person anyone wanna come?

at 4:52 PM

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Standing on the hood of the car, singing out loud when the sun came up.

Hey ho! MIDYEARS ARE OFFICIALLY OVERRRRRRR. :D

Anyway, I am left with the last 15mins of my birthday, so before it ends, I just wanna say THANK YOU to Germ, JQ, Shir and Fiona for this wonderful day! :D (&also the many surprises hehe) Love y'all loads! Also, thanks to everyone for the msgs and JQ for that cute little card (: Feels weird and kinda empty not celebrating with the5ofus though ): I think it's my first time. &I didn't see any of clique the whole day. ): Nonetheless, I had an awesome day today. :D

Living life like an ocean
Now the currents slowly pulling me down
It's getting harder to breathe
It won't be too long and I'll be going under
Can you save me from this
It's not my time,
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go

Today would've been perfect with you in it, but ohwells. Shucks I have only 4months more darn it. How am I gonna achieve my goal?! ): Nonetheless I won't give up. :D I cut my hair btw, and now I look like Germ, well kinda.

Aight now that I've said what I've been wanting to say the whole day, I'm feel so much better and I'm a happy kid again. I can now sleep peacefully and wake up at 8 tmr for stupid Physics. Darn.

Alrightos. Denise, out! :D

at 11:44 PM

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Haha hehe hoho I'm so happeeeeeee! :D
But I have no mood to studyyyy ):
I don't like to study Physics and Historyyyyyy.
&I am going crazyyyy.

I can't wait for Tuesday.
I'm gonna celebrate my birthday.
Have dinner and mommy's gonna pay =|
Out with fave people on Friday.
Hopefully get a CD by The Fray. :D

I have 4 more mins before I start mugging again.
See anymore books and I'm gonna faint ):
I wanna pierce my ears but I fear pain.
It's scorching hot I really hope it rains.

Haha this is lame. Shucks it's two gotta go back to mugging.
Had a fantabulous dinner last night btw. (:

Oh and once again, I'm reeeeaaaally happy today. The email made my day hooooyeah! (:

at 1:49 PM