HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY EVERYONE!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GRACE! :DI'M BACK! :D
I's been so long since I last posted, cannot! Not many people went back to AMKP today,(Eunice, Lucas, Justin, JunCai, MingLiang, Bernard, WeiKiat, and alot more guys) so slacked there for awhile before the guys went to play bball at KBCC, so I went home. ): Aiyah I think being in a girls school rocks sometimes, but I've gotta admit now I feel kinda weird with guys. This is bad. Bad bad bad bad bad. ): Nvm, JC or poly will come anyways. (: The whole world is outside now, &I'm at home. Aiyah sucha spoiler. ): Haha but nvm, it gives me a chance to slack and rot at home, which I haven't done in a looong long time.
50Laps@Cedar!
Woke up at 5 in the morning(!) and reached school at 635, just in time for my round. I was year 1969 haha! I think the tag idea is kinda cool (: Oh &purple shoelaces! :D Had to set up the secondhand booksale stall after that. Ohman the next 4hours was -_- zzzzzzZZZZ. Not many people came to buy the books, which is quite predictable. But it was more than expected so, yeah. I think we collected quite alot of money heheh. Then ran one round with 3N. Haha we were trying to run with MrGoh so we were like chasing after him. Gosh I think the people who ran the 50 rounds are DAMN COOL! I can never do that. 30+km! My goodness. So after that was the celebrations. HAHA they showed the video of MrJon bringing the big dustbin into class and throwing all the stuff in the drawers away. &they also showed him dragging/carrying the dustbin out, HAHA IT WAS DAMN CUTE. You gotta see it to understand hoho.
There were so many ex-cedarians today. It was actually damn cool, just that I felt so insignificant, heh. None of the ex-seniors recognise me, dammit. ): I don't think I look different with short hair and contacts. Hah maybe I'm just too short. ): Speaking of which, I don't think I'll grow anymore. I haven't grown in the past, 1 yr? &everyone has become so darn tall.
The holidays are here! Not a very good thing. There's SPA and lotsa mugging to do. 20+ days to EYE, damn. I haven't even started revising. &I don't feel like studying. I feel so lazy, and I keep procrastinating. Gotta slap myself awake soon.
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?I guess things are much easier if you lower your expectations. I didn't know it took you so long to realise that I don't really give a shit anymore, and that I want out. I don't see the point in explaining things and letting all of you know how I feel. Cause I guess all of us have long drifted apart, it's just that it's not obvious on the surface. We don't treat each other like how we should as best friends, we don't even give each other the basic respect all of us deserve. Maybe we're getting too used to all these, so much so that we forget how to treat each other properly. /shrugs Maybe it's just me.
Oh I think MrChan is damn nice. He asked me how I was and why I was always so dao ever since the accident happened. I don't think so la, I've always looked dao anyway. :D Then he asked me stuff like is it because the scar's ugly and you know, that kinda stuff. Felt kinda good after telling him some things, because I guess I haven't talked about it for quite some time. It's all bottled up somehow, cause I don't wanna be emo, so I just try to push those emotions aside. But after you let it out it feels daaaaamn good, hah. &I saw him again that day, and he asked me to smile, hoho. It doesn't look like he's done alot, but he has. :D &the things he said really made me think alot, again. I may appear indifferent whenever I talk about it, whenever I see it or them, but deep inside, it still hurts. Still hurts, will always hurt.
Okay I shall not be emo. :D Yay I think I've become a happier person, and it feels goooood! Oh, shopping also helps. So does keeping yourself occupied. So lets see, I have three things to be happy about:
#1 NO MORE JOGGING!! REJOICE PEOPLE! xD
#2 GREY'S ANATOMY IS BACK!!!
#3 ANTM IS COMING BACK!
:D
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Whatever happened to 'Friends Forever'?
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. I hope it's true. I guess people need some time away from each other ocassionally, cause people always only treasure things/people around them once they're gone. &how when you meet someone you haven't seen for a very long time, there's so much to say. But after awhile, the both of you run out of things to talk about and the conversation stops there, leaving an awkward silence. I think almost everyone only realises how much someone or something means to us only when we lose it, cause when we see them everyday, it becomes so familiar, so ordinary. So much so that we tend to take them for granted.But I guess drifting apart is another thing altogether. When you don't see each other as often anymore, when you have lesser and lesser things in common. Then there's no more common topic, no common element. When new friends are found and they don't see the point in keeping their old ones anymore. Can friendships be salvaged? Rarely I guess. &anyway, it takes two to tango. If only one person wants that friendship to work out, then it's not gonna work no matter how hard that person tries. I never realised how much of a stranger you have become to me until recently. It's only when you take a step back and observe what's going on around you do you realise how much things have changed. From noisy bus rides and talking so much you feel so thirsty, to awkward silences. Seriously, how can there be such drastic changes in such a short period of time? Friends are people who you enjoy being with, right?
So why do I feel so pressured everytime I'm with them? Pressured - to become someone I'm not.I'm so sorry for all the emo talk again. Things haven't been well lately. But I'm a happy kid! :D &on a happier note, my stomach's aye okay now! :D Food, glorious food, here I comeeeeee! I don't understand why I take so long to finish my food in school, and I hardly ever eat in school. When I come home though, I snack like there's no tomorrow and I finish my dinner in.. 10 minutes. =/ Unbelievable, eh? Well it's true. Haha oh on a totally random note, I think the title Jolyn's group came up with for the English report thing was so CUTE! Gosh, FLESHY FLASHER: FRIDAY NIGHT FRIGHT. HAHA! (: It's so catchy.
I.AM.SERIOUSLY.IN.NEED.OF.A.SHOPPING.SPREEEEEEE!!!!! ):
The last time I bought any clothes was one month ago, how seriously Pathetic! I
want need more clothes! /chants OHOH there's this 'In My Heart' photography contest I was thinking of joining. You have to capture a shot of a moment that touched you. It has to be submitted by 15 Aug though, and there's no age/skill category, so it's gonna be impossible for me to get any prizes. The prizes are SLR cameras! ): But I don't even know a single thing about photography, so forget it haha. Okay, I think no one, I repeat no one, knows I like photography except my mom and aunt. Heehee, now's not too late to know. (: Aaaaaanyways, I've decided to start mugging of end years next week! :D No procrastinating! Yeah right, I'll probably end up slacking.
I think my parents are so cute sometimes, look at this:
Haha! They didn't let me take a picture of them, so... heheh.
P.S - GREY'S ANATOMY ON 15 AUGUST! HOOOOOOORAY!
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Wednesday, August 8, 2007
1 week since I last blogged. Gosh, it feels like aaaaages!
I think this post will be quite outdated, but there is one thing I MUST say : COLOURS ROCKED! So hard. :D
Oh man I love 3N, I think dikir barat and COLOURS bonded us quite alot. (: YAY~
National Day Celebration this year was rather sucky. ): Dammit I knew I should've ponned school. Heheh. I felt so underdressed today, I think even the school uniform looks better. Haha but nvm. The parade and performances were nice though. I think UGs are cool, but it's only nice to watch them march, if I join any UGs I'd probably die. =/
My stomach is driving me crazy, and it's killing me, shit. It hurt so much last night I thought I'd die, seriously. Didn't get any better this morn. See, all the more I should've ponned haha. It's better now I guess, but I'm still gonna see a doc later. MC will be of no use though. I think I've lost my high threshold of pain, sucks.
Sorry for this lousy post, I feel kinda sian. All that I wanna do is sleep and use the computer and watch TV. No mood to stuuuuudy. EYE is coming, damndamndamn. Then there's Chi O's. ): I hatesecond half of the year, especially Term4.
Sometimes I wish that I can just forget about how people feel and just move on, but that's selfish and irresponsible. &cowardly to a certain extent, cause I don't wanna face the consequences of leaving. But I doubt I can will ever bear and dare to. Gee I feel like sucha coward. Maybe when I've finally had enough one day, the courage will just come automatically, but I guess the scene would be really ugly. ):
I got a first class ticket to a night all alone
And a front row seat up right by the phone
Cause you're always on my mind
And I'm running out of time
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