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Friday, January 25, 2008

I don't want to be just another.

Denise is now more motivated to study hard for O's! (: 1 down, 5 more to go. =/
HuiChun told me that I can get into poly through DSA, but I hafta go for an interview and I don't think I'd be able to back out if I change my mind. Ohwells, I'll just see how things go. (:

Gee I had so many things to blog about but now that I'm blogging my mind is blank. Haha now everyone owes everyone ice cream cause we used ice cream to bet on our results. Tried playing Gunbound (Yes I'm 16 this year and I'm a girl, I know) with Shirlynn on Weds and I failed. Miserably. I made her laugh like an idiot in front of her comp, or so she says. &she continued laughing at me in school the next day T_T

I need CNY clothes badlyBadlyBADLY. &GUESS WHAT. I'M CUTTING MY HAIR ON SUNDAY! :DDDDD YAY I AM SO HAPPY I can finally cut my disgusting long hair. I'm so lazy to tie it in the morning and keep re-tying whenever it's loose. Yay I finally look good in short hair, hoho! I shall stick to that hairstyle until I find a nicer one YAY! :D

I'm getting busier and busier every week! What's happening to my oh-so-free days?! Library's not slack anymore. Sadness.

Haha this post is so random, but at least it's not emo. :D Alrightey then, gotta scan and send stuff to people.

Bye world (:

No I don't want to be just another. I don't want to be just another girl. Not to you at least, cause I'm not. I hope you can see that and I want you to see that.

at 8:37 PM

Saturday, January 19, 2008

i always said that i would make mistakes
im only human and thats my saving grace
i'll fall as hard as i try
so dont be blinded
see me as i really am
i have flaws and sometimes i'm even sad
so pull me from that pedestal
i dont belong there

Cause I'm only human. I make mistakes.
Ugh I feel like slapping myself and knocking my head on the wall. I need a huge neon sign that says 'MOVE ON, DENISE' to be constantly in my face , 24/7. This is stupid I need retail therapy I need to go out I need to go high I need chocolate and alcohol I don't want to study I should shut up.

at 8:38 PM

&there he goes, so perfectly.

DENISE IS OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH NOVENA SPINELLI! :D
~~(or rather, Mr Sexy Barista XD)~~ Meehehehehe.

Anyway, four things I want/need to do:
1. Catch up with Germaine
2. Catch up with Olivia
3. Save more money
4. Buy CNY clothes

Retail therapy with Sammoo today was really unfruitful ): Everything everywhere is so common ): &everything's too big for me! Sam feels bad for me. But Sammoo (together with our super fun but spastic neoprints) and Spinelli made my day, as always. Hehehe XD. I won't wait for you any longer, I'll move on. I shall work in Spinelli after O's! Specifically, the one at Novena. :D If Mom allows ):

I just found out that there's SS and Eng test next week! ): I hate O's, it's robbing me of my freedom. Daaaaarn.

P/S - Sammoo and I concluded that we are inner emos. :D

at 6:33 PM

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Well didn't I, didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now

at 2:58 PM

Friday, January 11, 2008

But I'm not gonna let you make me run.

Hmmm. Haven't been posting for very long. I probably won't be posting so often from now. Yeah, Denise is becoming a nerdddd ):

Anyway, I've fulfilled resolution numbah one, two and three! Maybe four too. HAH! I'm so prouda myself. &since I sleep so early, I am so totally deprived of GREY'S! ): But I'll go borrow the DVD sooooon :D Numbah three's not really considered fulfilled. I hafta do stuff on my own for the time being cause Mom's not discharged yet ):

School's a booore I tell you! ): But thank goodness for my ever-so-noisy tablepartner, hoho. She makes school so much less boring :D

Hoookay, time to emo.

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1. I didn't use to believe in forever, but I thought that with you, things would be different. So I took the initiative time and again - to talk to you, wave to you, give you presents, sent you emails. &I didn't realise how stupid I was until recently, when I realised that you didn't care anymore. I thought we shared something special, something that no one would understand. I remember you telling me before not to feel underappreciated cause you've got me and that's all that matters. Well I guess things change.
(Note: Not who you think and not what you think)

2. Saw them trying on jerseys today and my heart sank, once again, to the ground. But I'm so used to that feeling. I pretend not to care and not to bother but deep inside it is KILLING me. I'm thinking if I should go this year, since it'll probably be the last chance for me to go support them and watch them play. But I'll just be a hindrance to everyone, so out, so loser. I guess all I am to them is irritating. Okay maybe not, but bottomline is, I don't think what I've done was ever appreciated. Maybe by one person who I'm really grateful to. About the rest, I really have no clue. I'm getting kinda sick of girls' school now, &I don't know why I always can't wait to leave the school during the last year. Was like that in p6, is like that now. Guess the grass is always greener on the other side. Or rather, seems greener.

Oh bytheway, I think I haven't exercised for faaar too long. After doing only 15 sit ups my stomach has been hurting for the whole week and I don't know why I have been having stomach aches and cramps for the whole week too. Daaaaarn it.

Okay, Denise is hungry. (:

Regret is the worse feeling anyone can ever feel. I guess you don't need me anymore. Think you've had enough. &I know once you've decided, once you've given your answer, there's no turning back. So it's time to pack up and leave. (:

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

at 7:35 PM

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

The price you pay to play the game.

I'm so sick of this game. &I don't why I keep letting this game get the better of me. I don't why I keep letting myself get hurt by it. Now I've realised, that this game is so overrated. I'm done with this game. I'm not gonna get involved with it, for the time being. But who knows? I'll most probably sing a different tune sooner or later, cause this fucking game is so addictive.

Yep, my take on the game of love.

at 4:23 PM