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Sunday, March 30, 2008

We call it love. And love hurts.

"But I could swear by your expression
That the pain down in your soul
Was the same as the one down in mine
That's the pain
That cuts a straight line down through the heart
We call it love"

Origin of Love - Hedwig and the Angry Inch
[Intro-ed by Sammoo (:]

Sad song.
Shit luh I feel effing depressed.

at 11:23 PM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

"I don't want words and explanations, I just want laughter, music and acceptance."

Yay I got the above from a book which I borrowed from the mobile library LOL. Finally, a book which I don't get bored reading. In the end, I still get stuck with these kinda books. It always has something to do with romance =| I just can't seem to get past 3 pages of Mystery books. ):

Aaaanyway, my mom is freaking me out. She's become some Youtube addict. She watched some 16 episode Korean drama which I haven't even heard of. That, is really rare. How can my mom know about a korean drama before I do?! Gosh. &the 16 ep drama was split into 7 parts for each ep. How on Earth did she manage to watch it without her eyes popping out?! Gee, even I can't/don't do that.

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there
And I'll be right there

Don't lift a finger
Let me show you
The only way to let this go
Don't lift a finger
Let me hold you
Hold you here until the pain it has all gone

I'm addicted to Take Care by Copeland! ZEE BEST EVERRRRRR :D
Oh, mid years are a month away. Should start mugging soon. =|

at 8:26 PM

Saturday, March 22, 2008

&this vacant night is dying.

I just realised I haven't been to someone's blog for a very very long time. Since last year? It's a good thing. (: At least I know I am truly, completely, finally, totally, absolutely, surely over you. &I have given up on your friendship. The passage for the Chi mock paper sort of got me thinking. &I agree with it, alotalotalot. Giving up is also a choice. In fact, sometimes giving up will make life happier and a lot less painful. It's important to let go of certain things and move on. Hanging on to the past will not prove useful at all. &I've learnt to let go. Of you and of Cedar basketball. &life's MUCH better. I can look at you now and not feel awkward, angry or even sad. Well maybe just disappointment. In you, maybe, but more of our friendship. Okay, nuff of emo crap. I don't know I always feel like that at night. Oh bytheway, letting go of the past was one of my New Year resolutions. So YAY! New Year resolution fulfilled. Wow, for once. (: YIPEE. I WANNA GO BACK TO THE COURTS! :D Hopefully I can make it. (:

I don't know if what Jamien said is true. Am I bored of them? I can't be. I shouldn't be. It's just wrong. Am I staying because I truly enjoy their company, or because I feel obliged to? I'm confused. ): Make this feeling go awaaaay.

I'm thinking of your vague reply,
So I can understand,
Why we put this at rest,
Why we forget to,
Say that we were leaving,
And say that we were sorry,
The past remains unspoken,
As this vacant night is dying.

But I still miss your summer perfume.
This cold air brings in such a distance to us,
Such a painful distance.
But I'm still waiting for you to say, you hate me now,
So I don't have to
Hold on to this burning heart,
This burning heart is getting old,
It's getting old.
While sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized, I've finally realized,
That you were never,
You were never meant, for me.

&the past reamins unspoken. It's better this way. We were never meant to even be friends. Ohwells. I ain't sad no more. This will be the last post about you. (:

at 12:14 AM

Friday, March 14, 2008

You'll always be the highlight of my day.

I'm taking pictures in my mind
So I can save them for a rainy day
It's hard to make conversation
When he's taking my breath away
I should say, hey by the way

If you and I are a story
That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I'll never get to hold, at least you'll know

Yesterday was ZEE BEST! Yesterday made me swoooooooooon. GAH! :D:D:D:D:D
Hehehe I so do not regret going though I prolly wasted Jamien's 15 bucks. ): Sorry! BUTBUTBUT! I think it was all worth it :D Cept I didn't get a picture. BUT. Still fun nonetheless :D

I am freezing my ass off in front of the comp. I don't like the cold cold weather it is driving my nose craaaaazy. &I left the house after bathing, feeling nice and clean only to get drenched in the rain ): &I refuse to use my retarded black and white pig umbrella =| I'm getting so weaaaakkkk ): Not good. Everytime I get drenched I will end up sneezing for the rest of the day. ): Didn't use to be like that.

It's been around one year since I've had this blog and up till now there are only 51 pathetic posts. ): But I guess it's better since half the posts on my old blog were about a certain someone or something. About 90% of the posts, I realised, were about me wallowing in self pity. =| Yeaaaahh. But I'm a happy kid now. :D Or at least I think so. No wait, I know so. (: Happyhappyhappy. The world is a nice place, only if you choose to believe so and only if you choose to look at the bright side of life. :D I want things to stay this way. Or at least I don't wanna revert back to the old 'The-world-is-a-sad-place' me.

Time check: 12.33 I should go to sleep now. I don't think I'll remember what I've typed when I wake up tomorrow. I'm still half dead from yesterday and today and hooooyeah, I can sleep in tomorrow and skip breakfast. The weather these few days is puuuuurfect for sleeping :D G'night world. (:

at 12:10 AM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I just want to see your face tonight.

Ugh shitass PMS is killing me!
Everything and everyone seems to be getting on my nerves. Darn it.

&life is already shitty enough. Now I'm hating/dreading Math tuition. I don't friggin understand why the hell everyone wants me to go to a friggin JC. I'M. NOT. BLOODY. INTERESTED! Ugh. Can't they just let me do what I want, do what I like?!? I want to be a nurse, or do media, or do mass comm. What's so bad about that?! Oh, and they say they allow me to go poly. Yeah, right. No matter what they'll still be friggin narrow-minded and insist I go to JC. If I want to go to a JC I'd aim for top5, but without my stupid CCA points I have to get only ONE A2. Like gee, thanks. How am I gonna do that?! If anyone mentions that bloody ass examinations again I'm gonna explode! I hate Math tuition. I'm gonna say it again. It's not like I have that motherfriggin 'Hols-are-coming-I-don't-give-a-shit-about-work' attitude/mentality. Really, I DON'T. Cause if I do, I wouldn't be labelled as a mugger and I wouldn't be in a shit ass mugger school. Or, I wouldn't have done half of my homework before, hmmm let's see, MONDAY?! I feel so fcking accused. Yes I don't do my tuition homework but who does man. &they can still learn faster than me. Gee, I wonder why. Maybe cause I'm SLOWER, as you've said before?! Fck.

But then, on a much happier note, I predict an awesome dinner tonight. Gosh it better be. If not it'll just add on to my alr shitty week.

I think I've fallen hard, too hard. Every week I get so excited and happy and then I realise it was over nothing cause you're always not there. &when I finally get to see you I only manage to catch a glimpse of you. It's far from enough, but I should be contented right?

When You're near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won't be coming back to here again

And let me know that I'm alright
I still have one strike of this match left
And I'm holding on to my last breath
And its getting a little dark around to see here

Oh and the cold cold weather isn't making me emo for once, it just makes me think about that F21 sweater that costs a friggin 60bucks ):

I need food. Shall go find some now byebye (: That calorie counter on my phone isn't helping at all, seriously. =|

at 4:04 PM

Friday, March 7, 2008

Cause I know &I believe.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you ~~quite~~ very terribly." ):

Monday Monday I can't wait for Monday! (:

You just don't know it
But it's gettin' hard to say hello
You just don't know it
I'm on the edge of crossing the line
I don't wanna blow it, or show it

There's too much at stake right now
I go on and on
Singin' this song about you
And that's whats wrong with this song

Because I know that it isn't as simple as everyone thinks it is.

Emooooooo. Yes I agree this time.

at 11:41 PM