I want to give it up so that it won't hurt anymore, but yet I can't. If I decide to give it up, however, I don't think I'll ever bring myself to touch/play it anymore. I don't know if I'll be able to live with it for another year. If I don't succeed eventually, I guess I'll just hafta force myself to give it up. /shrugs Anyway, 'it' starts with a 'B'. Obvious nuff'?

30th July is coming soon, &it'll be one year. But it doesn't affect me anymore. (: Why should I care so much when you don't even bother?

This week has been rather crappy. I'm being caught in the middle again. ): I hate this. I don't understand why it always happens to me, first in Primary school then now. I hate conflicts. Aiya shit. Anyway, all my test results suck. Like, A2 to C6?! Dieeee. =/ Buck up buck up! ):

Tuesday was nice though. Ate TauHuay(sp?) with Wenlyn and met Mary &Khairiah on the way out of school. I lovelovelove Khairiah's sunflower! Actually, I love all sunflowers HAHA! They remind me of ______ and they're so bright and prettty! :D Yep. So sat at the TauHuay shop till 4+, talking, emo-ing, eating, crapping. &we realised how fake the world is, how fake most people are. I don't know if I'm like that cause I can't judge myself, but yeah. Hopefully not. I always thought that two-faced people didn't exist and never existed. People gossip at the most, but I didn't think that people would actually be so fake and two-faced, talking behind your back but still treating you so nicely. Am I naive? Nah, well at least after this I know better. I believe in Karma though, what goes around comes around.

Here are some random stuff:
#1 I miss having long hair. &it's only been, what, 4 days after I cut my hair? ): But yet I want my hair to be shorter. Shucks maybe I should just go crazy and go be bung. Okay I'm talking rubbish, sorry.
#2 My psycho printer isn't working. I hope I don't hafta end up handing in a handwritten book review, I feel lazy.
#3 I feel so pissed and irritated with myself, I have been slacking so much ever since school re-opened. THIS.IS.NOT.GOOD. >:(
#4 I'm happy cause people finally tagggged. (: Lets hope my haloscan stays this way and doesn't die. (:
#5 I wanna go out with Sammooooo. ): But both of us haven't been able to fix a date. The last time I went out with her was last year. >:(

Yep. Gotta go now, gonna force myself to study.

they say sometimes you need some time apart
but I've got a bad case of broken heart.
and you're the only one who's got the cure.
and I can't live another day without seeing you smile.